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Aisling 🧠🌈's avatar

Wow. This is the perfect example of never knowing what someone is going through. The way you describe it sounds excruciating and I know that words are probably only able to convey so much. I’m no stranger to “dark thoughts” (trying to be delicate for the kids at home), so I completely understand why your mind would go in that direction, but I’m so relieved that you didn’t follow it down that path. I know I’m but a mere online acquaintance, but you bring a lot of joy into the world. The work you’ve done has definitely influenced my own work, and last night I happily fell asleep in my Caring is Cool t-shirt. I also relate with needing your own time to process before speaking about it. Sometimes we’re too open with the details, and I have admired you throughout this for keeping that space sacred for those close to you and for protecting your boundaries. Wishing you all the luck in the world!!!!

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Aisling, this is SUCH a lovely, beautiful message — thank you so much for your own generosity in sharing this. X

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Victoria Morrison's avatar

Ellie! I don't know how I didn't see this piece until now.. But, WOW. Thank you, gal. For being SO brave and sharing this with the world. It will Really help others 🩷 I so hope you're doing better and better. Keep writing, even if it's just for You. We're all here xo

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Thank you so much, o lovely one! X

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Rebecca Broad's avatar

Eeep an absolute stonker of a read. I feel enlightened in so many ways. I love your writing, and I’m very glad you’re still with us 💚

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Ellie Kime's avatar

so sorry for coming to this *checks notes* 5 months later, but stonker made me LAUGH. Thank you so much xxx

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Sara Dalrymple's avatar

Oh love, what a lot to process. There is no right timeline for healing or being ready to share, but I sure am glad you’re ready now. It’s only been a year: isn’t it amazing how much (and also how little) can change in that time? I sometimes can’t believe it. Sending you love you very brilliant woman. X ps you’re a great writer, you know that? ❤️

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Thank you, thank you, thank you. And thank you. Xx

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Pamela Dunn's avatar

I’ve always believed we are gently guided through life and I believe this was the right time for you to share your honest story. I am so happy to hear you’re being kind to yourself, you are a shining light and I miss your gorgeous presence in my life.

Much love beautiful, we are most definitely overdue a pot of tea and a KitKat - tied with pink ribbon obviously x

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Ahah thank you Pam! Hope you’re well x

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Imogen Partridge's avatar

Ellie. I want to give you the biggest hug. I hope it’s felt helpful to write about it and thank you for sharing your story I help educate people and allow them to understand a small insight into this horrific illness (is that the right term!!). I am so sorry for the year (and beyond) you’ve had and I am so glad you have found a solution to help so much and are feeling so much better. Sending tons of love xxx

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Hugging you right back across the internet!! X

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Monique's avatar

Beautifully written Ellie. Gosh, human beings are so resilient but I’m sorry you had to be. You are one strong lady for getting through this and for being brave enough to share your story ❤️💪🏻

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Thank you so much Monique, truly x

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Amy's avatar

Went to like this post but that simply didn’t feel right? 🙈 I guess I want to say simply that I’m sorry and I’m glad you’re doing a little better, sending good healing and positive vibes your way 💕

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Hahahah I know what you mean! Don’t worry, the sentiment is understood and appreciated 😂 x

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Eve's avatar

Sending you so much love and hugs lovely lady 🧡 Certainly no need to feel guilty, but the fact you have shows everyone how much of a caring person you are, always thinking of others. Thank you for sharing and I hope writing about it helps you too. Lots of love Xx

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Ellie Kime's avatar

That’s so kind and thoughtful of you to say Eve, thank you! X

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Antonia Taylor's avatar

This beautiful piece will help so many people Ellie. Thank you for sharing xo

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Thanks so much Antonia ❤️

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Lauren's avatar

So sorry to hear what you have had to deal with Ellie. Im glad you're doing better now even though there are still ‘challenges’ you’ll have to face. You've just educated me on TSW which sounds horrific. Loads of love for continued improving health xLauren

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Ah, thank you so much for taking the time Lauren x

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Antoanela's avatar

I’m shivering reading this. Thank you for writing it, it’s never too late - it holds a mirror I didn’t know I needed. And certainly haven’t come across before. Celebrating and grieving with you 😍

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Thanks so much Antoanela, what a beautifully expressed sentiment! X

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Hannah Ashe's avatar

Sending so much love Ellie - I’m sure writing this will help others but it makes complete sense that you could only do that when you had processed it enough to write about it. It is a very powerful read and you are one strong woman 💪🏻

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Thanks so much Hannah, I so appreciate it! X

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Jennie Godfrey's avatar

Oh this is very moving and searingly honest. Thank you for sharing it Ellie x

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Thank you so much Jennie ❤️

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Jo Linney's avatar

Ellie, there is no way you should feel guilty for not documenting. This post will help others. It is so important to look after yourself 😘😘

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Thank you so much Jo, I so appreciate it!

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Tamara Manuel's avatar

Thank you so much for sharing, Ellie - sounds truly horrific. I have a close friend with TSW and it I’ve seen how it literally consumes your life, and any energy you have is spent advocating for yourself to people who seem determined not to believe the person in front of them. I am SO pleased the injections are working!! You are really incredible for surviving this and I hope you know you can add “proud” to the title!! 💪

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Ellie Kime's avatar

Thanks so much Tam, and all my love to your friend as well. She’s very lucky to have you xx

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